Hello to anyone still out there, I am amazed you have stuck around.
I'm writing to let you know that I am feeling very little love for this blog at the moment. Writing about what I eat and when I exercise has started to feel trivial.
It's pretty easy to eat healthier and exercise regularly, but alas I have failed to make these changes. Whether I achieved this or not though, it doesn't deserve front page news. So why should I dedicate a blog to it?
I thought a blog might be a way to motivate myself, to be accountable. But instead of being a motivator, it has often left me angry and frustrated, particularly when I haven't achieved my goals. And when you are the ultimate editor, it's too easy to leave out the 'naughty' behaviours.
In fact, I am currently at my heaviest weight ever. That's pretty conclusive evidence that this blog has not contributed to me achieving my healthy and fitness goals. Now obviously I'm not blaming the blog for gaining weight, that is entirely my fault, but the blog hasn't been a useful tool in helping me to steer myself in a different direction.
So, where does this leave us? My Instagram account will still heavily feature fitness and food related pics and I will probably still write a post every now and then, but it won't be exclusively about health and fitness. Often I feel the need to share my thoughts or opinions about a number of issues, so they'll probably feature a little more often.
I hope you've enjoyed sharing this journey with me, but for now I'll say "see ya later". It's time for a time out.
- Dani
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Friday, August 9, 2013
Tuesday, May 21, 2013
running
Last night I went for a run.
Now this should be a fairly ordinary, regularly occurring sentence. But it isn't.
I used to run a lot. I used to like it.
But I don't particularly like running any more, well not long distances. Put me in a 200m sprint and I'm all smiles, get me to sustain a moderate pace for more than a minute and you've lost me.
The reason I struggle with running is also the reason I try to persist with it. Yes I can go to the gym and do a more varied workout for the same result. (Though my strength is pretty average these days too.) Yes I can do classes. Yes I can do interval training. But I continue to run/jog because it is a mental challenge for me.
Last night though, it was almost too much. I jogged approx 3.5km with a few sprints and walk down thrown in. By the end, the pain in my chest (I'm an asthmatic) nearly brought me to tears. If I'd been able to breath more clearly, I might have cried. Instead I wheezed my way to the bathroom floor and stayed there. I can laugh about it now, but it was a horrible, horrible feeling.
This is why I'm not a 'runner'. This is why fitness and daily exercise are not easy things for me to accomplish, and certainly aren't positive aspects of my life.
If I reach a PB, I feel a sense of accomplishment, of pride. But physically, I always feel wrecked. Mentally, I always feel dejected and disappointed. I know that physiologically we're all supposed to have endorphins, but goddamn where are they?
I'm not using this an excuse, it is something I've pushed through since I was a young girl. But as time becomes more precious and priorities changes, it's easier to push aside the unpleasant things.
So what now?
I'm going to continue to push myself. To keep running.
- Dani
Now this should be a fairly ordinary, regularly occurring sentence. But it isn't.
I used to run a lot. I used to like it.
But I don't particularly like running any more, well not long distances. Put me in a 200m sprint and I'm all smiles, get me to sustain a moderate pace for more than a minute and you've lost me.
The reason I struggle with running is also the reason I try to persist with it. Yes I can go to the gym and do a more varied workout for the same result. (Though my strength is pretty average these days too.) Yes I can do classes. Yes I can do interval training. But I continue to run/jog because it is a mental challenge for me.
Last night though, it was almost too much. I jogged approx 3.5km with a few sprints and walk down thrown in. By the end, the pain in my chest (I'm an asthmatic) nearly brought me to tears. If I'd been able to breath more clearly, I might have cried. Instead I wheezed my way to the bathroom floor and stayed there. I can laugh about it now, but it was a horrible, horrible feeling.
This is why I'm not a 'runner'. This is why fitness and daily exercise are not easy things for me to accomplish, and certainly aren't positive aspects of my life.
If I reach a PB, I feel a sense of accomplishment, of pride. But physically, I always feel wrecked. Mentally, I always feel dejected and disappointed. I know that physiologically we're all supposed to have endorphins, but goddamn where are they?
I'm not using this an excuse, it is something I've pushed through since I was a young girl. But as time becomes more precious and priorities changes, it's easier to push aside the unpleasant things.
So what now?
I'm going to continue to push myself. To keep running.
- Dani
Thursday, May 16, 2013
childhood memories
I have been wanting to go back to Point Nepean ever since I first visited those fascinating, albeit slightly haunting, tunnels during a school excursion. So I finally went for what was my fourth Weekend Walkabout.
Point Nepean is surround by water and has loads of history, and could easily have been an appropriate walk for many of the Weekend Walkabout Challenge "themes". But my memories there as a teenagers are still vivid, so childhood memories seemed the perfect fit.
Starting at the Quarantine Station, I had intended to hike up to Fort Nepean and back. However, the thrill of exploration was too great - I find the history, the stories, the remains at Point Nepean fascinating - so by the time I reach Fort Nepean I had already been walking for over 1.5 hours, and I knew I didn't have time for another 1.5 hours. Lucky for me, there is a transporter bus that shuttles people between the major sites. And nothing reminded me of being a child quite like being back on a bus.
I walked 7.73km with an elevation of 341m in 1 hour and 38 minutes. As previously mentioned, I was extremely distracted by the historical sights, so it wasn't a hike so much as an exploration.
The Mornington Peninsula is a beautiful part of the world and I will definitely head back to Point Nepean for future walks - it really has a bit everything (good tracks, interesting sites along the way, beautiful landscapes).
- Dani
Point Nepean is surround by water and has loads of history, and could easily have been an appropriate walk for many of the Weekend Walkabout Challenge "themes". But my memories there as a teenagers are still vivid, so childhood memories seemed the perfect fit.
Starting at the Quarantine Station, I had intended to hike up to Fort Nepean and back. However, the thrill of exploration was too great - I find the history, the stories, the remains at Point Nepean fascinating - so by the time I reach Fort Nepean I had already been walking for over 1.5 hours, and I knew I didn't have time for another 1.5 hours. Lucky for me, there is a transporter bus that shuttles people between the major sites. And nothing reminded me of being a child quite like being back on a bus.
I walked 7.73km with an elevation of 341m in 1 hour and 38 minutes. As previously mentioned, I was extremely distracted by the historical sights, so it wasn't a hike so much as an exploration.
The Mornington Peninsula is a beautiful part of the world and I will definitely head back to Point Nepean for future walks - it really has a bit everything (good tracks, interesting sites along the way, beautiful landscapes).
- Dani
Thursday, May 9, 2013
just add water
It is good to be flexible every now and then, so when I was asked to drive to Seafood on Saturday, I decided to go with it. This meant that instead of visiting the Gold Heritage Trail at Warrandyte State Park for 'a touch of history', I headed to the Seaford foreshore.
Seaford Pier - the starting location
Though the Seaford foreshore walking track doesn't have the most alluring scenery or challenging elements, it was a suitable substitute.
It is very flat and fairly sandy, and unfortunately very close to a main road. But there a couple of information signs with facts about the area, which keeps things a little educational.
Rather than walk up and down the same path, I crossed the Nepean Highway and headed back along the Kananook walking trail, which runs along Kananook Creek.
It is very flat and fairly sandy, and unfortunately very close to a main road. But there a couple of information signs with facts about the area, which keeps things a little educational.
Rather than walk up and down the same path, I crossed the Nepean Highway and headed back along the Kananook walking trail, which runs along Kananook Creek.
The Kananook walking trail is also lacking a little edge, but there were ducks aplenty, which entertained me greatly (much more than it probably should have).
I covered 8.35km in an hour and a half, but due to the flat terrain, only burned approx 700 calories.
As was evident by the number of locals walking/jogging along the foreshore, this walk demonstrates that you don't need to drive out to a National Park to find a reasonable walking trail. And while I am currently enjoying exploring new areas, this is probably not sustainable in the long term (at least not every weekend).
So get out there, enjoy the outdoors. I cannot express how happy I am that I set this challenge for myself. It is pushing me to do more outside and I'm really enjoying it. Sometimes it is nice to do something just for fun.
- Dani
As was evident by the number of locals walking/jogging along the foreshore, this walk demonstrates that you don't need to drive out to a National Park to find a reasonable walking trail. And while I am currently enjoying exploring new areas, this is probably not sustainable in the long term (at least not every weekend).
- Dani
Wednesday, May 1, 2013
challenge yourself
It wasn't easy, but I did it. I climbed the (approx) 1000 steps at the Kokoda Trail Memorial Walk.
After such a lethargic week - I'm not sure what is wrong with me, but my energy levels are low, low, low - it wasn't easy to get pumped up for my second Weekend Walkabout Challenge walk, but I am so glad I did.
Despite the throngs of people, many of whom passed me, I did feel a sense of accomplishment once I'd climbed the 1000 steps, so much so that I wasn't ready to stop (or go back down). So I continued on to One Tree Hill and then took a detour back to the carpark.
Wandering on my own along the Tyson Track was a truly blissful experience. Crowds have never been my caper, so once I was alone, with the sun shining and my legs walking, I began to sing.
Yep, I sang an awful rendition of It's a Wonderful World, but it felt fantastic! This is why I walk/hike - the enormous sense of calm, of adventure, of independence. I know a lot of people frown upon those who walk alone, but I feel such inner peace when I am bushwalking on my own.
Overall I walked 7km, with an elevation of 379m. My pace wasn't particularly great, but having struggled immensely with my breathing (being asthmatic and hayfever-ish) it isn't a surprise. Most importantly though, I got out there, saw something new and challenged myself.
Given the crowds (there are a lot of people there and it can be difficult to get a car park, but the crowd did seem to 'thin out' later in the afternoon), I'm not sure I would head back to the 1000 steps/Kokoda Trail Memorial Walk any time soon. For those interested in learning more about the Kokoda Trail and paying homage to the fallen soldiers though, it is worth a visit.
The greatest thing about this Weekend Walkabout Challenge so far, is that I am enjoying it. It is exercise, sight-seeing and down time all in one. I don't even feel like I am working out (although my polar watch says otherwise).
It really goes to show that if you find activities you enjoy doing, you're more likely to keep at it.
I haven't confirmed the location for my next walk, but given the theme is 'A touch of history', I'm considering checking out the Gold Heritage Trail, Warrandyte State Park.
- Dani
After such a lethargic week - I'm not sure what is wrong with me, but my energy levels are low, low, low - it wasn't easy to get pumped up for my second Weekend Walkabout Challenge walk, but I am so glad I did.
See, I'm smiling!
Despite the throngs of people, many of whom passed me, I did feel a sense of accomplishment once I'd climbed the 1000 steps, so much so that I wasn't ready to stop (or go back down). So I continued on to One Tree Hill and then took a detour back to the carpark.
Wandering on my own along the Tyson Track was a truly blissful experience. Crowds have never been my caper, so once I was alone, with the sun shining and my legs walking, I began to sing.
Yep, I sang an awful rendition of It's a Wonderful World, but it felt fantastic! This is why I walk/hike - the enormous sense of calm, of adventure, of independence. I know a lot of people frown upon those who walk alone, but I feel such inner peace when I am bushwalking on my own.
Overall I walked 7km, with an elevation of 379m. My pace wasn't particularly great, but having struggled immensely with my breathing (being asthmatic and hayfever-ish) it isn't a surprise. Most importantly though, I got out there, saw something new and challenged myself.
Given the crowds (there are a lot of people there and it can be difficult to get a car park, but the crowd did seem to 'thin out' later in the afternoon), I'm not sure I would head back to the 1000 steps/Kokoda Trail Memorial Walk any time soon. For those interested in learning more about the Kokoda Trail and paying homage to the fallen soldiers though, it is worth a visit.
The greatest thing about this Weekend Walkabout Challenge so far, is that I am enjoying it. It is exercise, sight-seeing and down time all in one. I don't even feel like I am working out (although my polar watch says otherwise).
It really goes to show that if you find activities you enjoy doing, you're more likely to keep at it.
I haven't confirmed the location for my next walk, but given the theme is 'A touch of history', I'm considering checking out the Gold Heritage Trail, Warrandyte State Park.
- Dani
Monday, April 22, 2013
explore the unknown
The Weekend Walkabout Challenge has kicked off!
Week 1 was all about exploring the unknown. Having chosen a park I'd never been to before, in a region I'd never visited before, I'd say the unknown was certainly explored.
Despite my desktop research about the various walks in the You Yangs Regional Park, on the day I decided to 'wing it'. By which I mean, I parked at a random location and chose a spontaneous route from there on.
Please note I would not use this approach in a park without clear walking tracks and signage.
With one hydration backpack (filled with icy water), one phone, a few dog treats and one dog, I set off.
From the Big Rock picnic area we headed towards The Saddle along Rockwell Rd. Now at this point I have to admit, I didn't chose the best walk. At least 2-3 km of our walk was along a dirt road and walking along a dirt road isn't particularly interesting. Ah well, it was nice being spontaneous.
Once we reached The Saddle, things got a little bit more interesting. There were a number a smaller, more interesting paths to choose from. There was the East walk, West walk and Saddleback track.
Intrigued by the Bunjil geoglyph, we took the Saddleback track, which was predominantly a dirt track heading straight down.
I dislike walking downhill at the best of times. Add an impatient young canine and it was bordering on painful. Luckily we managed to reach the bottom without too much skidding and sliding, and it was a pleasant walk from there to the geoglyph.
The geoglyph was somewhat interesting, but does not need to be seen up close. If you want to see it in its entirety, I recommend walking to the lookout on the Flinders Peak track. (Of course, I didn't know this til later.)
Now it was time to head back up the hill. At this point I was planning to head straight back to our starting point, but... when we reached Turntable picnic area and I saw groups of people heading up to Flinders Peak I thought "challenge accepted".
At this point we'd been walking for 1.5 hours, but I was there, in the moment, with energy to burn. So 450 steps and steep gradients seemed a logical thing to do. Besides, you can't go somewhere and not reach the top, right?
So Maple and I bounded up the Flinders Peak track at a cracking speed. I was feeling fit and energised. Despite all the extra weight I was carrying (being overweight and all), I felt like my old-self again. The sporty, adventurous lass that I used to be. It was great.
The view at the top was pretty good, but the feeling of accomplishment, of having pushed myself and risen to the occasion, was even better.
But that wasn't enough for Miss Maple. She stepped it up a notch on the way back down from the peak and I ended up running the rest of the way. (Who would have thought it?!)
Eventually, 2.5 hours after we'd started, we were back at Big Rock picnic area. Tired, a little sore, but grinning stupidly.
Using the app, MapMyHike, I was able to track where I walked, how fast I walked and the elevation throughout my walk. Pretty nifty.
So there you have it, 11.37 km hiked over two and a half hours (during which I burned over 1500 calories). A fantastic adventure, so much better than spending the day pottering around the house.
I strongly recommend any of the walks at the You Yangs. There is enough variety to suit most fitness levels. And if you are very fit, you can always run instead.
Now I am thrilled about next weekend. What better way to challenge myself than the 1000 steps Kokoda Walk!
- Dani
Despite my desktop research about the various walks in the You Yangs Regional Park, on the day I decided to 'wing it'. By which I mean, I parked at a random location and chose a spontaneous route from there on.
Please note I would not use this approach in a park without clear walking tracks and signage.
With one hydration backpack (filled with icy water), one phone, a few dog treats and one dog, I set off.
From the Big Rock picnic area we headed towards The Saddle along Rockwell Rd. Now at this point I have to admit, I didn't chose the best walk. At least 2-3 km of our walk was along a dirt road and walking along a dirt road isn't particularly interesting. Ah well, it was nice being spontaneous.
Once we reached The Saddle, things got a little bit more interesting. There were a number a smaller, more interesting paths to choose from. There was the East walk, West walk and Saddleback track.
Intrigued by the Bunjil geoglyph, we took the Saddleback track, which was predominantly a dirt track heading straight down.
I dislike walking downhill at the best of times. Add an impatient young canine and it was bordering on painful. Luckily we managed to reach the bottom without too much skidding and sliding, and it was a pleasant walk from there to the geoglyph.
The geoglyph was somewhat interesting, but does not need to be seen up close. If you want to see it in its entirety, I recommend walking to the lookout on the Flinders Peak track. (Of course, I didn't know this til later.)
Now it was time to head back up the hill. At this point I was planning to head straight back to our starting point, but... when we reached Turntable picnic area and I saw groups of people heading up to Flinders Peak I thought "challenge accepted".
At this point we'd been walking for 1.5 hours, but I was there, in the moment, with energy to burn. So 450 steps and steep gradients seemed a logical thing to do. Besides, you can't go somewhere and not reach the top, right?
So Maple and I bounded up the Flinders Peak track at a cracking speed. I was feeling fit and energised. Despite all the extra weight I was carrying (being overweight and all), I felt like my old-self again. The sporty, adventurous lass that I used to be. It was great.
The view at the top was pretty good, but the feeling of accomplishment, of having pushed myself and risen to the occasion, was even better.
Eventually, 2.5 hours after we'd started, we were back at Big Rock picnic area. Tired, a little sore, but grinning stupidly.
Using the app, MapMyHike, I was able to track where I walked, how fast I walked and the elevation throughout my walk. Pretty nifty.
So there you have it, 11.37 km hiked over two and a half hours (during which I burned over 1500 calories). A fantastic adventure, so much better than spending the day pottering around the house.
I strongly recommend any of the walks at the You Yangs. There is enough variety to suit most fitness levels. And if you are very fit, you can always run instead.
Now I am thrilled about next weekend. What better way to challenge myself than the 1000 steps Kokoda Walk!
- Dani
Friday, April 19, 2013
weekend walkabout challenge
The days may be getting shorter and colder, but that's no reason to stay slumped on the couch all weekend.
Personally I love the colder days. Not only do I get to layer my clothes and wear my much-loved scarves, but I don't get hot and bothered so easily while exercising. And that crisp air can be goddamn refreshing.
The change of season also means that footy is back, which means I am now sans boyfriend every Saturday.
So what to do on these chilly days as a lady of leisure?
Set a Weekend Walkabout Challenge, of course!
Over the next six weekends I'm going to tackle six different walking trails. I figure this is the perfect opportunity for me to explore more of Victoria, get active and enjoy some downtime. And it's a great way to make the most of the Autumn weather, before Winter well and truly sets in.
For anyone else that wants to partake in this 6 week challenge, I have devised a little plan that can help inspire your walks, wherever they may be.
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My current itinerary looks something like this
I might be flexible with the locations, but I will definitely stick the 'themes'.
So what are you doing this weekend?
Want to go on walkabout too?
I know I'm ready for "a spontaneous journey through the wilderness of one's choosing in an effort to satisfy one's itchy feet, a need to be elsewhere, the craving for the open road, that space over the horizon".
- Dani
PS. If you want to enjoy your walks with a canine friend, this is a great guide for dog friendly walks near Melbourne - Walking your Dog in Victoria's Parks
Personally I love the colder days. Not only do I get to layer my clothes and wear my much-loved scarves, but I don't get hot and bothered so easily while exercising. And that crisp air can be goddamn refreshing.
I love the colder weather!
The change of season also means that footy is back, which means I am now sans boyfriend every Saturday.
So what to do on these chilly days as a lady of leisure?
Set a Weekend Walkabout Challenge, of course!
Over the next six weekends I'm going to tackle six different walking trails. I figure this is the perfect opportunity for me to explore more of Victoria, get active and enjoy some downtime. And it's a great way to make the most of the Autumn weather, before Winter well and truly sets in.
For anyone else that wants to partake in this 6 week challenge, I have devised a little plan that can help inspire your walks, wherever they may be.
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My current itinerary looks something like this
20 April - You Yangs Regional Park
27 April - 1000 Steps Kokoda Walk
4 May - Gold Heritage Trail, Warrandyte State Park
11 May - Point Nepean National Park
18 May - Two Bays Walking Track (partial)
25 May - tbd
I might be flexible with the locations, but I will definitely stick the 'themes'.
So what are you doing this weekend?
Want to go on walkabout too?
I know I'm ready for "a spontaneous journey through the wilderness of one's choosing in an effort to satisfy one's itchy feet, a need to be elsewhere, the craving for the open road, that space over the horizon".
- Dani
PS. If you want to enjoy your walks with a canine friend, this is a great guide for dog friendly walks near Melbourne - Walking your Dog in Victoria's Parks
Thursday, March 7, 2013
a good (re)start
Well, it has been a good start to the week, particularly on the health front. I have been eating clean, healthy food, without over indulging. Surprise, surprise... planning/being prepared seems to be a key element in this success.
Warm chicken quinoa salad with chilli zucchini and garlic broccoli (I just use whatever greens I have in the house at the time) has to be one of my all time favourite meals. (Thanks Heidi! Get the recipe here.)
Even something as simple a freshly chopped pineapple for breakfast, has helped me feel healthier and energised. (And feeling more energised is big thing for me.)
Dan has also been putting his inner chef to work and created a delicious, mostly healthy, Caesar salad.
After my recent hiatus at the gym, I can't believe that I am actually smashing out gym sessions. My overall endurance has definitely decreased, but my strength and my determination don't seem to have dwindled. I even managed a personal best on the rowing ergo yesterday.
But all is not perfect. I had a can of Coke Zero yesterday and after my gym session on Monday night I had the appetite of an animal preparing for hibernation. Though I still managed to eat decent food, it was a much larger meal than I should've eaten.
As previously mentioned, I am currently researching why people overeat and choose the 'wrong' food.
In particular, I am always baffled as to why I crave pizza when I know I enjoy eating a roast veg salad more. It doesn't seem to matter how much beautiful, healthy, fresh food I prepare, I still crave junk food. And I'm sure I am not alone in this.
Regardless, there is no magic pill that will change my attitude towards food - and even if there was, I wouldn't want to take it - I am determined to make these changes on my own. I just need a way to ensure I keep on making these changes. Hmm, if only it was that easy.
- Dani
Warm chicken quinoa salad with chilli zucchini and garlic broccoli (I just use whatever greens I have in the house at the time) has to be one of my all time favourite meals. (Thanks Heidi! Get the recipe here.)
Even something as simple a freshly chopped pineapple for breakfast, has helped me feel healthier and energised. (And feeling more energised is big thing for me.)
Dan has also been putting his inner chef to work and created a delicious, mostly healthy, Caesar salad.
After my recent hiatus at the gym, I can't believe that I am actually smashing out gym sessions. My overall endurance has definitely decreased, but my strength and my determination don't seem to have dwindled. I even managed a personal best on the rowing ergo yesterday.
But all is not perfect. I had a can of Coke Zero yesterday and after my gym session on Monday night I had the appetite of an animal preparing for hibernation. Though I still managed to eat decent food, it was a much larger meal than I should've eaten.
As previously mentioned, I am currently researching why people overeat and choose the 'wrong' food.
In particular, I am always baffled as to why I crave pizza when I know I enjoy eating a roast veg salad more. It doesn't seem to matter how much beautiful, healthy, fresh food I prepare, I still crave junk food. And I'm sure I am not alone in this.
Regardless, there is no magic pill that will change my attitude towards food - and even if there was, I wouldn't want to take it - I am determined to make these changes on my own. I just need a way to ensure I keep on making these changes. Hmm, if only it was that easy.
- Dani
Friday, February 1, 2013
it's easy to smile when you're winning
The post holiday blues might be setting in now. It has taken over two weeks, which seems a bit long to me, but it was bound to happen as some point.
Between my fragile emotional state, my weary body (seriously when did everything start aching?) and an abundance of work, this round of 12wbt is most definitely not going to end with a bang. (In fact I think I've started gaining weight again.)
It was easy to be positive and full of energy when I was seeing great results, but as soon as the tables turn, it becomes much harder to stick with the strategy. So, I will admit it... I've been very slack the past two weeks. With each weigh-in and every time I look at my body in the mirror, my will seems to diminish. I'm thinking... no moping, rather than doing.
Without the forced gym junkie and health guru regiment, I still make healthier choices more than I did pre-12wbt. I am even choosing to go for a run not because the plan says so, but because I (kinda) enjoy it.
But is this good enough? No.
Am I unhappy with my body and my level of fitness? Hell yeah!
Of course I would love to be happy in my own body, blah blah blah. But the reason this disappointment is so significant is that it means that I care. I care about my body, about my health. Hell yes, I care!
So now I have confirmation - I am completely controlled by my emotions/mood... and it has to stop. A shitty day at work does not give me the right to stuff my face with calorie-laden food. In fact the whole logic is backwards. My body and brain have clearly already suffered enough after a tough day, I should be rewarding myself by looking after them.
It is easy to dispense these words, now I need to put this theory into action. So I'm creating a little project for myself, I'm calling it Project 'Mood Buster'. When I'm exhausted or feeling emotional, even cranky, I'm going to try to reward/improve myself with non-food actions/activities.
For example, "It's been a tough week, I deserve a few Friday drinks" will become "It's been a tough week, I deserve a massage" or "It's been a tough week, I deserve a bubble bath".
Or when a mood strikes, "All I want to do is curl in a ball and cry" will become "I'm feeling really crappy, maybe a walk/comedy gig/bike ride with a friend will cheer me up".
Sometimes, when the pressure is on at work, the first thing I do is head for the lolly jar. This is probably going to be the hardest behaviour to crack. My current thinking is that if time permits, I'll try to step outside for a moment instead or make sure I always have healthier snack alternatives at my desk (though this doesn't tend to have the same psychological effect).
This is definitely more an art than a science, but it might provide some real benefits long-term.
And if anyone has already found some great mood busting tricks, please feel free to share.
- Dani
Between my fragile emotional state, my weary body (seriously when did everything start aching?) and an abundance of work, this round of 12wbt is most definitely not going to end with a bang. (In fact I think I've started gaining weight again.)
It was easy to be positive and full of energy when I was seeing great results, but as soon as the tables turn, it becomes much harder to stick with the strategy. So, I will admit it... I've been very slack the past two weeks. With each weigh-in and every time I look at my body in the mirror, my will seems to diminish. I'm thinking... no moping, rather than doing.
Without the forced gym junkie and health guru regiment, I still make healthier choices more than I did pre-12wbt. I am even choosing to go for a run not because the plan says so, but because I (kinda) enjoy it.
But is this good enough? No.
Am I unhappy with my body and my level of fitness? Hell yeah!
Of course I would love to be happy in my own body, blah blah blah. But the reason this disappointment is so significant is that it means that I care. I care about my body, about my health. Hell yes, I care!
So now I have confirmation - I am completely controlled by my emotions/mood... and it has to stop. A shitty day at work does not give me the right to stuff my face with calorie-laden food. In fact the whole logic is backwards. My body and brain have clearly already suffered enough after a tough day, I should be rewarding myself by looking after them.
It is easy to dispense these words, now I need to put this theory into action. So I'm creating a little project for myself, I'm calling it Project 'Mood Buster'. When I'm exhausted or feeling emotional, even cranky, I'm going to try to reward/improve myself with non-food actions/activities.
For example, "It's been a tough week, I deserve a few Friday drinks" will become "It's been a tough week, I deserve a massage" or "It's been a tough week, I deserve a bubble bath".
Or when a mood strikes, "All I want to do is curl in a ball and cry" will become "I'm feeling really crappy, maybe a walk/comedy gig/bike ride with a friend will cheer me up".
Sometimes, when the pressure is on at work, the first thing I do is head for the lolly jar. This is probably going to be the hardest behaviour to crack. My current thinking is that if time permits, I'll try to step outside for a moment instead or make sure I always have healthier snack alternatives at my desk (though this doesn't tend to have the same psychological effect).
This is definitely more an art than a science, but it might provide some real benefits long-term.
And if anyone has already found some great mood busting tricks, please feel free to share.
- Dani
Friday, January 18, 2013
everything is falling into place
The last few weeks have been fantastic. I am feeling healthy, happy and almost fit. It is hard to describe how wonderful this feeling is. Furthermore, the bonds with my family and boyfriend have strengthened. My work is constantly challenging and encouraging me. To be honest, life couldn't get much better.
This transformation started after I realised how unbalanced my life was. I'd put on a bit more weight and I was working some pretty long hours at the time. Then I had the thought "If I'm prepared to work this hard in one area of my life, why don't I put in half as much effort into other areas of my life?". At this point, I decided to join the Michelle Bridges 12 week transformation and thus my journey began.
It certainly hasn't been a smooth journey. There have been good weeks and bad weeks. Positive moments and moments of sheer hopelessness. I can honestly say that acknowledging my situation, trying to move beyond my weaknesses and flaws, has been one of the hardest things I have ever done.
People often make excuses because they don't want to take accountability for their actions (or in-action). But I didn't just make excuses, I didn't care. By not caring, I was happy, but my body wasn't.
This body is the only one I've got and I'm going to have it my whole life. And I have treated it so poorly.
When I realised this and realised the behavioural issues ingrained in me that perpetuate this mistreatment, I felt totally shattered. Here I was thinking that I am a capable, dedicated, smart individual, but I couldn't do something as simple as keep my body in good shape. Needless to say, this self-reflection resulted in a lot of tears.
Out of the tears and reflection came something wonderful - knowledge and resolve. I was learning, learning about myself, learning about what I needed to do to get out of this situation. Now by no means am I now a guru on health and fitness, my mind still craves all sorts of things when I know I'd actually prefer something else, but I am better. And I will never stop learning, nor will I want to go through that process again.
Now I'm under 80kg, a milestone I thought I'd reach weeks ago, but I am thrilled regardless. My body shape is different and I am loving it. My attitude has changed, and is continuing to change. Everything has well and truly fallen into place.
This brings me to the main point of this post, and it is a point I'm sure I will need to tell myself time and time again. I also hope it might help just one other person out there.
- Dani
This transformation started after I realised how unbalanced my life was. I'd put on a bit more weight and I was working some pretty long hours at the time. Then I had the thought "If I'm prepared to work this hard in one area of my life, why don't I put in half as much effort into other areas of my life?". At this point, I decided to join the Michelle Bridges 12 week transformation and thus my journey began.
It certainly hasn't been a smooth journey. There have been good weeks and bad weeks. Positive moments and moments of sheer hopelessness. I can honestly say that acknowledging my situation, trying to move beyond my weaknesses and flaws, has been one of the hardest things I have ever done.
People often make excuses because they don't want to take accountability for their actions (or in-action). But I didn't just make excuses, I didn't care. By not caring, I was happy, but my body wasn't.
This body is the only one I've got and I'm going to have it my whole life. And I have treated it so poorly.
When I realised this and realised the behavioural issues ingrained in me that perpetuate this mistreatment, I felt totally shattered. Here I was thinking that I am a capable, dedicated, smart individual, but I couldn't do something as simple as keep my body in good shape. Needless to say, this self-reflection resulted in a lot of tears.
Out of the tears and reflection came something wonderful - knowledge and resolve. I was learning, learning about myself, learning about what I needed to do to get out of this situation. Now by no means am I now a guru on health and fitness, my mind still craves all sorts of things when I know I'd actually prefer something else, but I am better. And I will never stop learning, nor will I want to go through that process again.
Now I'm under 80kg, a milestone I thought I'd reach weeks ago, but I am thrilled regardless. My body shape is different and I am loving it. My attitude has changed, and is continuing to change. Everything has well and truly fallen into place.
This brings me to the main point of this post, and it is a point I'm sure I will need to tell myself time and time again. I also hope it might help just one other person out there.
Don't give up.
Every small improvement you make, even if it isn't a permanent one, will help you. Every over-indulgent snack you turn down, every extra step you take. All of it is worth it. And this applies to anything you want to achieve in life. It might not be the fastest way to reach your goals, but you will make progress.
In a previous post, when I was in struggle-town, I wrote this -
I might be able to make this transformation step-by-fricken-tiny-step. But I have to keep trying. Because even though I'm no where near my goals, I am closer than when I started. I might never have a light bulb moment, but I never want to give up.
And it is so true. I think that this realisation really helped to turn things around for me. I stopped focusing on achieving the perfect transformation, stopped comparing myself to other 12wbters with phenomenal will-power.
So yes, there are crazy, amazing, inspiring people out there who can lose 20kg in 3 months or transition from being a couch potato to a marathon runner. But the people who get on with their lives and make small changes every day, those people are inspiring too.
- Dani
Monday, December 24, 2012
thank you
Work is over for the year. Family shenanigans in Singapore are well underway. 2013 is just around the corner.
But what a year it has been! 2012 has been a year of progress for me. I have made changes to improve the balance in my life. Health and fitness are now firm priorities. Work has been challenging and rewarding, and I'm loving it. My wonderful boyfriend and I moved in together. I have been fortunate enough to travel domestically and internationally. (But I certainly wouldn't complain about the opportunity to travel more.) In all honesty, I have had a fantastic year. There are still so many things I need to work on, but I'm sure I will never stop striving to better myself.
Lately the topics of honesty and openness have been bandied around. While I can be known to keep my cards close, I believe that I am honest and open when appropriately engaged. This year I have shared my thoughts, feelings and experiences through two blogs - openly and honestly. Writing about my struggles with weight loss has been a truly difficult, occasionally frustrating, but overall thought provoking experience.
The support I have received from people in the 12wbt, blog and instagram community has been overwhelming. I cannot thank you all enough. Every comment, like, response, hug, pat on the back has been cherished.
But what a year it has been! 2012 has been a year of progress for me. I have made changes to improve the balance in my life. Health and fitness are now firm priorities. Work has been challenging and rewarding, and I'm loving it. My wonderful boyfriend and I moved in together. I have been fortunate enough to travel domestically and internationally. (But I certainly wouldn't complain about the opportunity to travel more.) In all honesty, I have had a fantastic year. There are still so many things I need to work on, but I'm sure I will never stop striving to better myself.
Lately the topics of honesty and openness have been bandied around. While I can be known to keep my cards close, I believe that I am honest and open when appropriately engaged. This year I have shared my thoughts, feelings and experiences through two blogs - openly and honestly. Writing about my struggles with weight loss has been a truly difficult, occasionally frustrating, but overall thought provoking experience.
The support I have received from people in the 12wbt, blog and instagram community has been overwhelming. I cannot thank you all enough. Every comment, like, response, hug, pat on the back has been cherished.
Thank you!
And have a Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year!
- Dani
Wednesday, December 19, 2012
quick update
Olla! Oh what a slack little bunny I've been. I haven't had much time for blog-lovin lately. (Sorry.) So here is a quick update.
The nutrition plan I created for myself was a success and I promise to share more info (including recipes) with you soon.
Despite being the silly season my alcohol consumption has been low and the platters, etc. have been kept to a minimum. Although I do plan to indulge a little during my work Christmas party this week.
While I have been happy with my nutrition of late, the exercise front has faced some serious issues. After a week with the flu, getting back into my usual exercise routine has not been easy. Given that I'm about the leave the country for 3 weeks, I'm going to have to come up with some creative ways to stay motivated. Luckily I'll have more free time.
Yes, I am going to overseas this Saturday! Boy do I feel like I need a holiday. First stop is Singapore, for some much needed family time. Then it is on to Japan for an eye-opening extravaganza.
Fun times ahead!
- Dani
- Dani
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